December 31, 2009 at 7:57 pm (Uncategorized)

People are posting all over the place about their New Year’s resolutions.  I feel like every year I have a mental list of things I want to accomplish, but don’t make a big deal out of it because I usually don’t accomplish them.  I’m really hoping this year I get my shit together.  So, here is a list of things that I would really like to do this year:

(items with a * are uber important)

*Lose weight and look bangin at Rob’s wedding

*Go see Oma 2 times

Travel as much as possible (within financial reason, of course)

Try to enjoy life a lot more

learn to cook/bake

Have a dinner party

Keep in better touch with friends

There are a gajillion things that I could put on this list, but I think that I don’t want to overwhelm myself too much.  I can always add to it later.

Ok, Goodbye 2009!  You were a crazy year, but some really cool stuff happened in your time.  Here’s to an AMAZING-knock your socks off-take your breath away 2010!

May the  road rise to meet you;

may the wind be always at your back;

may the sun shine warm upon your face;

the rains fall softly upon your fields;

and until we meet again,

may God hold you in the palm of His hand.


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Julie and Julia

December 31, 2009 at 6:40 am (Uncategorized)

I just watched Julie and Julia and I kind of loved it.  Who knew Jane Lynch was in that?

It makes me want to cook lots of delicious things and become a writer.

The one thing I don’t like about movies is how they portray couples and relationships… and things always work out.  Obviously, Hollywood knows what viewers like, I mean who would want to go watch a depressing movie that is actually realistic?  Maybe people who liked “The Road”.  Or “No Country for Old Men” (Which was on TBS the other day). People watch movies to get away from reality.  I love movies sooo much, they are so inspiring and my life has been changed many times because of them.  But, sometimes I feel a little crappy about my real life afterward…

But it’s ok… I still want to cook lots of things…yum.

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Serenity now

December 22, 2009 at 4:08 am (Uncategorized)

…cause i’m too lazy to come up with anything original…

The man who doesn’t relax and hoot a few hoots voluntarily, now and then, is in great danger of hooting hoots and standing on his head for the edification of the pathologist and trained nurse, a little later on.  ~Elbert Hubbard

Men for the sake of getting a living forget to live.  ~Margaret Fuller         Right on, Margaret.

The mark of a successful man is one that has spent an entire day on the bank of a river without feeling guilty about it.  ~Author Unknown                               Agreed, anonymous dude…agreed.

Don’t underestimate the value of Doing Nothing, of just going along, listening to all the things you can’t hear, and not bothering.  ~Pooh’s Little Instruction Book, inspired by A.A. Milne

Oh Pooh, you are a wise bear considering your head is stuffed with fluff.

Don’t let your mind bully your body into believing it must carry the burden of its worries.  ~Astrid Alauda

Stress: The confusion created when one’s mind overrides the body’s basic desire to choke the living daylights out of some jerk who desperately deserves it

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December 20, 2009 at 4:52 am (Uncategorized)

The more sensitive you are, the more likely you are to be brutalised, develop scabs, never evolve. Never allow yourself to feel anything, because you always feel too much.

Marlon Brando

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Quotes and quotes…never enough!

December 20, 2009 at 4:21 am (Uncategorized)

“Where there is sorrow, there is holy ground.”

-Oscar Wilde

The tears that you spill, the sorrowful,

are sweeter than the laughter of snobs

and the guffaws of scoffers.

– Kahlil Gibran

“Each of us wages a private battle each day between the grand fantasies we have for ourselves and what actually happens.”

– Cathy Guisewife

“I know God won’t give me more than I can handle.  I just wish He wouldn’t trust me so much sometimes.”

– Mother Teresa

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December 19, 2009 at 7:32 am (Uncategorized)

My eyes are swollen.

You know what’s completely ridiculous?  Emotions.  I mean, at what point in evolution was it necessary to emit liquid from one’s eyes when overcome with sadness?  I really can’t imagine any situation where that would be useful.

I honestly don’t want to talk or think about today ever again.  I didn’t put the flowers in water because a) i don’t have a vase and b) it would be a negative reminder.  I don’t ever want to look at my cap and gown again.

I can’t explain exactly why it was so important to me, it just really was.

And he put up a facebook status about being all emotional about it.  He didn’t really show it.  I still love him, he’s my dad.  I just want to forget about it.

Today was pretty much the exact opposite of what I imagined.  Yep, the complete and total opposite.  Ugh, I can’t even think about it without feeling sick to my stomach.

Good things:

Thoughtfulness and empathy in others.  Even when you feel totally out of control and like you are acting ridiculous, to know that the one you love is hurting because you’re hurting, is beautiful.  Not the hurting part, but the connecting part. Like your heart and theirs is directly connected with a string, and any pull affects both.

I will never get enough of anyone telling me they are proud of me.  Never.  I know that I’m proud of myself… and I can’t often say that.  But for others to recognize my hard work and sacrifices is a wonderful feeling.  I did good 🙂

My goal is to never take anything for granted, to see the good in people in every day life. It’s hard for me sometimes because I do have high expectations…or because I have any expectations at all.  But, I’m a Virgo and I can’t help it!  It’s not my fault other people don’t live up to  my high standards 😉

Honestly, all i really want right now is to stop feeling like I can’t breathe and sleep for 8 hours straight…I have a feeling that will be a challenge since Peanut has taken up a nightly residence atop my pillow, leaving only a few inches for my head.  But, dammit that cat loves me like nobody’s business and I can’t resist.

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December 18, 2009 at 12:21 am (Uncategorized)

some people wear their smile
like a disguise
those people who smile a lot
watch the eyes
i know it ‘cuz i’m like that a lot
you think everything’s okay
and it is
’til it’s not

outta me, onto you…

no more

some people wear their heart
up on their sleeve
i wear mine underneath my right pant leg
strapped to my boot
don’t think cause i’m easy, i’m naive
don’t think i won’t pull it out
don’t think i won’t shoot

outta me, onto you…

~Ani DiFranco

So, is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with.
Cause I’ve seen more spine in jellyfish.
I’ve seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids.
Have another drink and drive yourself home.
I hope there’s ice on all the roads.
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt,
and again when your head goes through the windshield.

And is that what you call tact?
You’re as subtle as a brick in the small of my back.
So let’s end this call, and end this conversation.
and is that what you call a getaway?
well tell me what you got away with.
cause you left the frays from the ties you severed
when you say best friends means friends forever

-Brand New 70 x 7

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December 14, 2009 at 5:15 am (Uncategorized)

I am very grateful for the thoughtfulness of others.

It is so so so nice to know that someone else is thinking about you and sincerely wishing you well.

I often feel like everyone else is too busy with their own lives to care or show support.  Or that I’m just not one of those people who doesn’t really have a cheering section (I’m used to it, but it still would be nice :).  I am really trying to be open and thankful for every hint of thoughtfulness that comes my way.

In no particular order, here are some things that I am grateful for:

*Matt letting me hold onto him like an old woman when we walk outside, so I don’t slip on the ice.

*My dad and DIANA(!!!!) Diana’s parents, Ingrid, Katie, Matt, and possibly Luisa and Mary are coming to my graduation (I seriously cannot express how much this means to me)

*Matt’s parents giving me a graduation gift

I really am blessed.  Like Omi used to say, my cup runneth over.

And so it begins…..My last week of student teaching…followed by graduation….followed by parties…then moving out….New Years….Moving in….weaseling my way into the world of education because Hey!  I’m apparently qualified to teach now, and I have a masters degree with makes me feel pretty special…..moving out….moving in…Life

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December 14, 2009 at 2:56 am (Uncategorized)

“I am an American, Chicago born – Chicago, that somber city – and go at things as I have taught myself, free-style, and will make the record in my own way: first to knock, first admitted; sometimes an innocent knock, sometimes a not so innocent.”

Saul Bellow

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